Welcome to my other blog. I started this one shortly after graduating from the C.I.A, to differentiate between my food and my other thoughts. It's a cozy little place with frequent weird but real, honest thoughts.

There's really not much more to say here, as anything mildly interesting is either down below or written in my Armadillo section above.
Hope you can relate to some of my thoughts and situations, even if they tend to be strange sometimes

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Tired and Flabby

What is it about Febuarary? Since the first week of February, I have been overwhelmingly exhausted. I haven't wanted to work out at all. The Wii Fit board would chastise me for missing so much time!

I feel tired and bloated. Flabby. I sleep too much and take in so much less caffiene than I used to.

Hoping for a burst of energy and motivation as March rolls in. Hopefully walks and Wii Boxing are in my March Future. In the meantime, I'm trying to ride out the rest of the month with minimal Valentine's Chocolate consumption.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Made of Snow/I don't know/ How I fit in

I am a freak. I've known it all my life. When I talk to people, or people look at me, I wonder "Do they see how ugly I am? Are they thinking how big a freak I am?"
I am a freak.
I was diagnosed with NF1 when I was about 2. It wasn't ever a big deal; MRIs and stuff.
I've been healthy. I've been lucky. But, I'm a freak. I'm painfully shy and weird. I wonder what 'they' think. NF has affected me most socially and mentally, as well as weird bone deformities. I'm awkward and talk too fast. I have an ugly jaw due to the space between my nose and throat not being formed when I was born, so it had to be broken at 6 weeks old.

I am a freak. I think it a hundred times a day.

"Made of snow,
I don't know How I fit in
To and fro, people go
I stand and grin"