We've been home from the Honeymoon a few days, and we're already mostly settled back in. How else am I supposed to feel? I feel like Matt and I have a different relationship than is protrayed by the average person or TV show. We're not needing to spend every second of our time with each other. We're not all over each other. It's the same as before. Only now wedding bills are paid and I need to change my name.
When you've been with someone six years and living with them for two, things feel a lot different. There's no honeymoon switch that went off in our head that made us turn into two love sick teenagers. We were just happy and relaxed. Enjoying spending time together and being in this bubble for two weeks of no work thoughts, no home thoughts. Just "Why yes, the lamb shank DOES sound good for dinner" and "Yeah! I'll wait in line 45 minutes to go on Mission Space!" It was bliss.
But now that's over and we're home, already feeling our way into roles as husband and wife. It's exactly the same as before. Only now we're married. Preparing meals, reading books, checking e-mails. I'll be back at work tomorrow and then things will really be as they were. It's nice that things haven't really changed yet. I know it's early, and they say marriage changes a lot of things, but what? Other than last names, a new bank account and swapping insurances, what else? I mean, we've handled bills, cooking, cleaning and everything else as a couple. When we -eventually- have kids, that'll change EVERYTHING, but for now, things seem to be the same. Btu we'll see how I feel in a few months!
But I'm more or less okay with that. We did the whole love-sick teenager thing. I don't feel like I'm losing out on anything. We're just us. MattandJenn. We come as a set.
Don't get me wrong, my wedding day was the most perfect day of my life and the honeymoon as truly an amazing two weeks of food, tours, parks and sunshine. But what now? I spent a year planning this wedding, now what am I gonna talk about? Who am I? Bride to wife in just a few minutes. My co-workers will be glad that the countdown is over, but what next for careers?
Anyway. I don't know where this is going. I guess I don't feel like the stereotypical newlywed. But since when have I ever done anything stereotypical?