I've been doing a lot of cleaning lately. I tackled my room, my closet, going through papers, folders, notebooks from college. All this time, and over the years, I've kept my eye out for a little green composition book. In my old Ethics class, we were given the tiny notebooks to write down the quotes we'd write on the board before class. Not for a grade. Just for us. As my time in the class and at the school dwindled, I realized more and more how important this book would be...What if I found this in a few years...What would it say?...What would I want it to say?
I've been hoping to find the notebook. But knew, I knew I couldn't just find it. It would find me when the time was right.
I had to put together the apartment closet today. Pulling out an old box of school things, I wondered if I would find it. I had my doubts, since just this week I'd made the sad conclusion I'd never find it again. But I still hoped that maybe someday it would find me.
And there it was. In a binding folder. Peeking out at me, as if it's been there the entire time just waiting.
"12/03/2007 To myself: If I find this years from now, I hope you've made choices that make you proud. I don't know where I'll be, but know you've always had a good heart, and you love your family, don't forget that. <3 Jenni."
"Nothing in this world worth having comes easy."
"Love yourself without worrying what others think of you, it's not so bad to be different."
"I don't know where I'll be in the future, or what I'll be, so I'm going to be me. Difficult, complicated, moody, laughing, weird, nice, sharing, worry wort, crazy outside the box me, so I wont wish later. I am Jenni Robinson, and I'm going to be me while I still can."
"Trust me, your G.P.A wont matter 6 months after you graduate...Just work hard in school and at everything."
"It's okay to do nothing sometimes."
"You are more lucky then you will ever know."
"Please have a good heart."
"If a man does not keep pace with his companions perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer Let him step to the music which he hears however measured or far away"
"Looking back, nothing seems so bad, so don't fret so much when it happens."
"Don't be nasty to be nasty. Don't stoop to their level and backlash meanness."
"Don't be fooled. Remember, some people NEVER change. EVER."
"Love your parents."
"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me."
"Some people really never change. Know who they are"
"Be kind, but know when to stand up for yourself."
"Don't give up, yet know when enough is enough and to call it quits."
"Don't be so afraid to be so different. Others just don't get it!"
Thanks, Dr. Johnson, from Ethics at the C.I.A, this was my favorite part of this class, and I am so happy to have found this again.
....What would you tell your past self?