I am a freak. I've known it all my life. When I talk to people, or people look at me, I wonder "Do they see how ugly I am? Are they thinking how big a freak I am?"
I am a freak.
I was diagnosed with NF1 when I was about 2. It wasn't ever a big deal; MRIs and stuff.
I've been healthy. I've been lucky. But, I'm a freak. I'm painfully shy and weird. I wonder what 'they' think. NF has affected me most socially and mentally, as well as weird bone deformities. I'm awkward and talk too fast. I have an ugly jaw due to the space between my nose and throat not being formed when I was born, so it had to be broken at 6 weeks old.
I am a freak. I think it a hundred times a day.
"Made of snow,
I don't know How I fit in
To and fro, people go
I stand and grin"